"Maybe we shouldn't do this."
You mean maybe you don't want to do this. Based on nothing more than your own doubts, neuroses, and personal hangups. Things that you search for so keenly in me because then you don't have to feel so guilty about having them.
"We're not going anywhere."
We've already come so far! But maybe you're right. I'm not willing to get hitched and get you knocked up so you can fulfill your dream of living without any clear means of supporting ourselves. Sorry I wasted your time.
"I thought you would be the one to turn it all around."
And I thought we were meant to accept one another, faults an all. I wasn't aware you needed fixing.
"I think I give up." "I'm too tired."
Me too. I don't know what else to do if "I love you" doesn't work. If showing it doesn't work. If I haven't convinced you by now, I don't know if I ever will.
[A dark day in January, 2009]
[Which is truly worse: The things we say to the ones we love or the things we only say to ourselves?]
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